あなたがいなくて寂しい,曇

treat me nice treat me good
treat my juz the way you should
give me all the love you possibly could
and i will be yours truely for good

stay with me stay by my side
tell me everything's gonna be alright
hold my hand through the night
and wrap your arms around me tight

pls be there when i cry
only you can bring me comfort and joy

i need you yes i do
nothing else i want except you
juz being there with you makes me smile
juz the sight of you can stop my flowing tears

every time we touch / cascada

every time we touch,
you pull me out from the cold dark abyss.
bringing warmth and light,
showing me what love is

*this super short poem is written for a radio contest (987) for cascada CD hamper..
and to my surprise mine was the winning poem the dj chose..(i actually didn't think i stand a chance and was half asleep whan she called me)..she said the reason why she picked this was bcuz of the feeling/emotions it carries..and asked who was i refering to..but the truth is that it was written out of what i was searching for rather then wad i felt before..anyways..this is one of my fav piece of work too..*

clouds in the sky / secerets of the heart

looking out into the starlit night sky
watching as the clouds drift by
reaching out to feel the chilling winter breeze
gently blowing through my finger tips

longing to see you face to face
to feel your soft gentle lips once again
wanting to feel you skin to skin
to be in your warm embrace just once again

never knew i could love someone
never knew love till you came
my heart could only beat to the rythem of your heart
but our future lies in oblivion, it was never meant to be

thank you for showing what's love to me
however short-lived it may be,it's still as great as it could be
a bitter sweet memory, that's what it is
for you are the cloud i see, but can never reach...

2nd june 09

random

i am a nobody
nobody loves me
and for that
only i love me
for nobody loves me
and i am nobody
(and this shit shall continue till forever)
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cries of nature/ greed of man

for every cry we fail to hear
for every tear we fail to see
lies a sacrifice to be made
and a price to be paid

when those flowing tears turned to tears of blood
and those pitiful cries turned into howls of hate
with all her might she shall strike
unleashing all her anger and despair

one by one, her beloved children are dying
drop by drop, her broken aching heart is bleeding
bit by bit, her hate and fury is building
day by day, her countdown has begin

2nd june 09

心の涙

how broken can one's heart be
how whole can one's soul be
how much tears can one cry
how deep can one's love be

try to think of everything
and anything but you
but somehow anything & everything
are a reminder of you

love can tear one up
without leaving any scars to be seen
love can kill one's soul
leaving behind a empty shell without life

one's heart is numb by the pain
that it no longer feel anything other than the pain it last felt
one's eye has ran out of tears to cry
that heaven has to cry for one's behalf and flood the world with one's sorrow

reflection after watching a very disturbing video

what is right..
what is wrong..
why do people do things which are unforgivable..
even after knowing so..
where is the kindness..
where is the soul..
why do people bury their heart and kill their soul..
and fall to a place even lower then that of where Lucifer reside..
where is the justice..
where is god..
why are innocent people with heart & soul dying..
yet those who are better off dead ear still going strong..
is god blind..
does he not feel..
the pain & suffering of those violently killed..
is god deaf..
does he not hear..
the painful cries & weil of the dead while they're being killed..

dark moonlight / 暗い月の光

something has changed deep inside
no longer run, no longer hide
embracing whatever the sleeps inside
being fun, being cruel
no longer strictly abiding by the rule
all of me, i'm setting free
no longer chained up in captivity
all the me, i was forced to be
now are just part of what has been
where there's light, there will be me
Let the Darkness spread through Society.........

130909...

Am i here, or am i not..?
Am i not seen..?
Am i not heard..?
I walk among you, do i not exsist..?
What's Heaven..?
What's Hell..?
What is the World that we live in..?

This World is llike a Coin,
with Heaven & Hell as its sides...
I'm there, amidst the crowd,
i exsist among the many people, but never part of them...
For i can be there beside them,
but i am neither seen nor heard...
My body's alive, my Soul's dead...
My heart's beating, but i'm like a living dead...
I'm here, where i don't belong,
where i'm not welcomed, and i'm never part of...

cries in the dark/ 暗闇の中で泣く (poem)

calling, crying, screaming out
to your name which you can never hear
streching out my hands
reaching out to your shadow
which i can never hold

breaking down, falling apart
my heart's can bleed no more
tears no longer flow from these eyes
which no longer have any life in them

staring out into to vast emptyness
feeling totally nothing but lost
not knowing anything anymore
not knowing myself anymore

still calling, crying, screaming out
somewhere in the depth of my soul
no longer having a name to call out to
my soul cries out for anyone
anyone at all who can hear my screams,
my cries, my S.O.S..