蒼い月の光

faint moonlight of the gentle blue moon
shining upon the lonely earth
branches sways as the cold wind blows
she sits there crying, on a starless nite

"light of blue, is light of loneliness
words can't be spoken, is words of the heart
everyone's here, but noone's around
is the world in which i lives in
'living hell' that's what they call it
is the only place of my existance"

her eyes are dead, her heart is numb
her soul no longer sings of love and joy
with eyes that are dead, and a heart which is numb
what future does she have when her soul no longer dream

21 nov 08

if this is a dream, i would pray no to wake

but at the back of my head, i still remember that dreams don't last

somehow i wish, to wake sooner, and not to dream too long

for the world is too cruel to those who had juz awaken from their sleep

"i have the Abyss too well

the coldness and darkness has surrounded me too long

but even when i should've been numb to the Abyss

the cold, dark pit still scares me even now

i have longed for warmth and light

to be in the embrace of hope and joy

but when they're there in front of me

i dare not reach out to hold it close

for i'm afraid the Abyss might grab me back

after i had once held those dreams in my hands

and that days might get harder to pass by

as i've once felt the comfort those dreams bring

the cruelness of he Abyss gets harder to bare"

something written for him..25 feb 09

Juz to be there,
hiding in one small corner
watching Him queitly frm a distance,
would be enough for me.

To feel wad He's feeling,
His pain, His anger, His happiness, His sadness
to share His tears and laughter
would be wad i wish for

Luv Him wif My all
without Him knowing
to become one of His many buddies
would be a dream for me

You are the special "Anata" for me
even if you do not think so
juz to luv you,
openly if you allow,
secretly in the dark if it burdens you
will be all i ever wanted

something written for him..23 feb 09

I Miss U!
But I Can't See U :(
I can Only Put U in my heart
I can't let u see me now
Cuz i can't hide it well enough
And i dun wan U to see
Juz how much i miss ya
As a friend, i dun wan u to worry
As some1 who loves ya,
i dun wish to scare u.
i dun wanna lose u again
I can only wait till my heart is strong
And everyone thinks I'm alrite
Than, I can see U
And hope U, like everyone else,
can't see my pain

光/ 闇

the darkness of the abyss does not seem so dark to one who has not seen the light
the brightness of the sun does not seems so bright to one who has not seen the darkness
the coldness of winter does not seems so cold to one who has not felt the warmth of summer
the hottness of the desert does not seems so hot to one who has not felt the winter cold

one who has never known love can never know true loneliess
one who has never been embraced will not know the sadness of loneliness
one who have not tasted the sweeter side of life will not know the bitter side is bitter
one who knows nothing about anything knows not what lies waithing in the future

feelin lost, feelin cold
suddenly feelin all alone
even though i'm surrounded by people
it juz seem like i'm all alone

no one's there
there's no one to hold
even if i cry
i'll be crying alone

i wanna call out
but there's no one to call out to
so i simply cry 'save me! anyone!"
and pray with my eyes closed
that someone will eventually hear it

i've known the darkness too well
i've known this pain too well
even when i may be smiling
it is juz to hide the pain my heart bares
while dripping tears of blood

i seek comfort in looking upon the moon and stars
which are there for the lonely nite sky
and it seems as though they are there for me too
sayin 'there there..we're here..so there's no need to cry tonite'

i seek comfort in the wind
blowing through the erth be it day or nite
as if there to cheer me up
sayin 'you are not alone..i'm here for you..so be brave'