i've been sent, to roam,
among the living
drenched in plague
clothed by death

wanting nothing more
than to live in solitary peace
for it is not my will
to bring upon destruction of man

deep in the jungle
among the valley of death
is where i shall reside
a place, almost impossible to set foot in

but my quiet days were not meant to last
for once in awhile, beyond my control
lost travelers will chance upon my domain
soon after, stories will spread like wild fire

HUMANS! Does Your Foolishness Knows No Bound!?

trying so hard to find
things which weren't meant to be known

trying so hard to reach
that which is untouchable

thus, bring upon themselves
a fate, which is inevitable

for i am sent
by Hell itself
to punish those humans
who no longer abide by the rules

i seek not, the destruction of man!
it is not my nature to do so
it's they themselves who seek their own destruction
via their disobedience, and redundant curiosity
they brought upon themselves,
a fate, no one can save them from

26/06/2010 1819h

我がの気持ち

as i took his hand
and place it where my heart is
wondering if he can feel my heartbeat
or even, all those feelings which are being kept there

a love which is hard to contain
a love which is overflowing
as i pray that they'll pass on to him
while his hand feels my steady heartbeat

black is all i known
for that was all that i see
in a world where no light can be found
i grew up, not knowing the colours of joy

yes, that WAS my world
the darkness of the deep abyss
till you came, everything changed
you are the light, which manage to shine
through those walls i've built around me

for the first time in my life
i can see the azure sky
i can see clouds drifting, and flowers blooming
above all, i can see that beautiful rainbow
stretching across the clear blue sky

you Are the colours that i'm seeing
you Are the joy which i'm feeling
you Are all that was unfamiliar to me
most of all ... ...
you are the love i never knew i had in me

24/06/2010

dreams, not meant to be
memories, not as sweet as it seems
tainted by the lust of man
is there any good, left in me?

kindness, not always true
so as love, not always real
when light, isn't all that comforting
and darkness, isn't all that frightening

pitiful souls,
tricked by the vain hypocrisy of the world
refusing their very own hearts
they know nothing, but to run from the truth

what are truth?
when they are something which people refuse to see and believe
what are lies??
when they are something people chose to embrace & worship,and seek comfort in

20/06/2010
0330h

桜 の花

the pale pink petals
of the cherry blossom flower
behold it's beauty
an art of nature's creation

beauty beyond the description of words
beauty which is out of this world
mesmerizing all who set their eye onto thee
making them drunk in joy & ecstasy

flowers which are suppose to be as white as snow
tainted by the blood of the deceased
possessed by the spirits of those who cannot move on
a beauty so sad, yet so alluring to all

愛する死神

dearest Death, leave me not
for the stillness of the air around you
is what i've accustom to

don't leave me now, don't leave me Ever!
just stay by my side, for you are my 1 & only companion
Stay with me! till me end is here

i'll be waiting patiently, for that day to arrive
for you to come, and ferry my soul away
into the depths of hell, there is where i should've been

never meant to roam the earth, among the living
my existence was a mistake from the very beginning
for i was never meant to be, part of the human beings

being abandon, time & time again
all hope is lost, only despair & pain is left behind
how i wish yo cold come for me sooner, before my time is up
to ferry my soul away, from this land, which were never meant to be my home

there in your abyss, is where i should be
where darkness is all that surrounds me
only there, can i find comfort & peace

my beloved Death! why won't you come sooner
end my pain & these endless sufferings
i'm longing to be back, into your sweet embrace

a desire so wrong, a wish never meant to come true
but that is the sole desire my heart is having
that is a wish, i'm praying, that'll come true somehow

back in your arms, surround by your love
surround by nothing but the darkness so pure
is where i shal make my home, where i shall find my peace

13/06/2010
0404h

forgive me, for i've sinned
a sin so deep, i should never be forgiven

i've yearn for something
which could never been mine
yet, i reach out for it still
not to hold it close, but juz to feel it with my skin
knowingly i shouldn't have done so

forgive me, for i've sinned
a sin so deep, i should never been forgiven

there will be neither salvation, nor redemption
not even in death, for the likes of me
even so, i can't help but to pray
for the hounds of hell to sink it's fangs into me
injecting deadly poisons, and survival is impossible

forgive me for i've sinned
a sin so great, i should never be forgiven

in the depths of darkness, is where i should be
within the embrace of hellish abyss
is where i shall find my peace
surrounded by stagnant air & silent screams
that's the place, befitting for someone like me

Forgive Me! for i've sinned
a sin so deep, forgiveness shall never be mine

upon the emerald hills

the amber horizon stretches across the endless sky
i sit and watch, as the warm gentle light slowly fades
till the light azure sky appears
with soft & sweet cotton candies hanging here and there

as i lay and stone, upon the lush green slopes of the hill
watching, as those pearly white clouds are drifting by
changing in to many different cute & funny shapes from time to time

a huge fire breathing dragon, or a serpent sticking out it's forked tongue
baby rabbit happily hopping around, or a puppy/kitten just lazing around
a magnificent padi field, or a peaceful zen garden
surprises are there, in those cloudy skies, everytime you looked up

those are the things i enjoyed watching
as i laze around, doing nothing
constantly changing, as they come and goes
while i remain stagnant, stoning on the gentle slopes of this hill

the sound of nature, are the only music to my ears here
sounds of insects, well hidden from my sight
sounds of the wind, whistling through the branches and leaves
sound of the rain, as it drizzle down, nourishing all that is green, all that lives

once in awhile, the gentle breeze picks up speed
lifting up from the ground, those fallen leaves & flower
twirling & swirling them in mid-air
as though a beautiful dance of mother nature

as the rushing winds slows down, and the dance comes to an end
i lay there still, lazing on the gentle slope of this emerald hill
pondering through random things, which normally would be preferred to be overlooked
meaning of life, reason for existence,
fear of the unknown, existence of another world
stoning, as i lay on this lush green hill
wondering forever, aimlessly, in a world full of questions wif no definite answer.....

22 may 2010

One Winged Angel by The Black Mages

Bloom

罪のバラ

rose of sins
Blooming amidst the Land of Dead
Among those deadly poison thorns
In a long God forsaken place

A land where no life survives
Non but the Devil's vines
And a single crimson rose
Never withering, never fading

It's always there
Hidden among those thorns
Blooming at it's peak of beauty
When the new moon is shining bright