open up one's eye to see

that one is blinded by those illusions around him...

uses one's heart to see

that the truth shall unfold itself before thee

seasons comes, seasons goes
juz like how people come and go
frens, family, lovers, haters
not a single one of them stays forever

love, is like faith,
it's a gift, not to be taken forgranted
for many, including me
are not blessed wif such gift
and never will

God, u want to fellowship wif me
but, i have to decline..
for to go heaven is not my wish
for i never wanted an everlasting life

God, u are gd, u are graceful
your greatness is known to most, including me
many seek to get closer to you, but not me
for i know my place well, way too well
thus, i can never enter those holy gates of heavens

forgiveness is wad i seek not
for i shall not seek that which i knew i'll never receive
thus, same goes for love and faith

ur grace, ur greatness
they are all like bright and blinding lights
gentle, warm, comfortable,
yet, way too blinding for me

i am the seed of the underworld
darkness and chaos is where i should be..
burn in the flames of hell i shall
for that is where i should be...

dreams are dreams, nothing but a made believe
seems so real, yet never were

dreams are dreams, be it a nightmare be it sweet
once woken, everything fades away

i am me, nothing but me
a tiny existance, never to be remembered

i am me, all so true, yet unreal
for like a dream, once i left, all memory of me fades away
never stay, never lingers, i'll always be the dream u can never remember..

17 nov 11

heaven's gate wont open
neither will the path to hell show
noone's waiting with their arms open
i can only wait for this desert to snow

gods are watching, angels are listening
so are satans and devils
but all they do is just to enjoy the show
they watch us just as we watch our actors act

people see, people hear
but do anyone knows what is it that they see or hear
or are they just like everything else
where everything around is just an interactive movie
they are the main character and nothing else matters

if so, than i must be the passerby in every movie
never mattered, never stayed
never would anyone even noticed
even if i were to disappear one fine day

noone would notice, noone would care
noone would bother cuz noone knows

i shall fade into the world which has quietly waited
for me to return to it's embrace once more
where no masks are needed
no hypocritsy requried
there i shall be
returning to the state which i should've been
to the place of all beginning

laviakay

17/11/2011

i dream
i stone
and daydream about things i never know

i laughed
i cried
and  i must have lost my mind

i've hated
i've loved
and all is but a memory which i have to be reminded to remember

sane or insane
real or fake
which am i? which am i not??
that, i do not know..for what's sane, what's not, differs for everyone..

living for the money, living for the fame
living for a chance to make it big one day..

but not for me

living for the living, living for the dead
i'm living for he who has died, but still remain here for me

蛇龙恋

当地上的蛇爱上了天上的龙，对于龙而言， 并不是什么大不了的事。
不过， 对蛇而言， 是一段矛盾辛酸的开始。。。

小蛇在草丛中玩耍， 突见天上有条龙儿飞过。 小蛇圆本没想太多，自顾自玩， 不去理绘。过了几日后， 小蛇又看见了龙儿在天空飞过。小蛇还是没去理绘太多， 自顾自玩。
时不时， 小蛇都会看见龙儿从天空那儿飞过， 但她知到她自己没法像龙儿一样在空中飞翔， 所已都让自己别去想太多。。。

つつく

time slips pass one's grasp
juz as flowing sands slips through one's fingers

without realising, without knowing
in a blink of an eye, precious moments has come and gone

imprint those moments, deep into memories
may they never fade

for wad has past can never be revived
within one's memories is where precious time well spent
can live on forever

all my thoughts, loud and clear
no longer am i gonna deny
i'mma embrace all feelings
be it gd or bad, they'll be crystal clear

i'll not look away frm wad my heart wanna say
i'll not look away frm wad's real to me
even if it hurts, even if my soul feels like breaking apart
i'll embrace them all
for in the end, i'll ask for one thing and one thing only
which is to be able to spend some time with him, once in awhile
that, alone, is enough to heal everything

never did i asked for too much
never did i think too little
guess even happiness is too much to ask for
and thinking of every possible explanation is never enough

i'm sorry for causing u trouble
i'm sorry to be a pain
all i ever wished for
is for u to share wif me wad's on ur mind

now tat u've cut off all ways
which i have to find out wad's on ur mind
u never know how insecure i'm feeling
to know tat u can know everything about me
while i knownothing about u

will i ever be the apple in his eye?
will i be a blessing in disguise?
will i be the one to be by his side?
will i ever be the love of his life?

What qualities do you look for when you're dating someone?

"must be as gd looking as brad pitt, as rich as bill gates".... ... ...is tat wad u guys are expecting frm me?? O.o

juz feel comfortable wif each other, AND he's able to make me smile, tat's more than enough for me~~ REALLY!!! ^^

Ask me anything~

why am i thinking of you when i'm hungry ? hahahahaha

cuz i look tasty~?? o.O
LOL...xDDDD

Ask me anything~

flame of passion flame of desire flame of motivation when will u burn in me? having no motivation no real desire no passion for wad-so-eva i'm simply living, for the sake of living i'm a doll, wif noone pulling the strings driffting along wif the tide goin where ever the winds takes me

heart skipped a beat, or two
just by hearing the sound of your voice..
feet rooted to the ground, not being able to walk away
just by looking at your figure amidst the crowd..
soul drifted somewhere else, my thoughts and my body ain't mine to control
just by seeing you, walking towards me..
u make me weak, to my very core,
mealting my armor, overpowering my great wall..
.. .. ....

(to be continue)