time to pray, time to sleep
time to put all woes away
once you wake, it's a brand new day
and surely you're gonna see those smiles again

important to me, are those around
and their voices are the most lovely sound
to see them play, and hear them laugh
to have loads of fun or juz lazing around

when i close my eyes, those time continues
when i wake, the fun shall continue
for i'm sure we'll hang out again, soon~
♥

looking forward, with no emotions
eyes as such
what future can they see

pale and gray, skin like those of a corpse
with a lifeless body
what more can the soul do

endlessly wondering, among thoughts
of everything, of nothingness
can one remain sane, while being lost in never-ending circle

words of the heart, never to be spoken
lips sewn shut
what hope is there to speak of

life is the beginning?
no, death is
life is to be feared, for it the true ending

as such, i place no hope in life
but rather, in death i seek peace
for it is there, in death, where i shall start my stories

6/7/2010 1657h

to You, my Love......i'm sorry

Death! u love me so
but why do you wish for me to live
why not just take my soul
and make it yours
just as you are mine....

Humans! which despise me so
with your sick way of reasoning
there is no end to my suffering
yet you refuse to let me die
for you will have one less soul to torture

Gods! u love me as well
but your selfish love comes wif a price
u love me, as long as i'm alone
but when i mingle wif others
one is bound to suffer
for i am meant to be yours, and yours alone
not to be shared among the rest of foolish humans

Death! u love me so
why did u forbid me to take my own life
why is it tat our contract states
"i am to live my life, happily, till it's natural end"
why won't you let me go to you

Death! u know i love you so
u know i long to be your's alone
but all u do is smile, and encourage
and at times, those smiles
they just make my desire to be wif you stronger
for i am juz another foolish, naive human
whose selfishness knows no bound
who is weak in the face of adversity
who is easy to back down in face of difficulties

so Death, my beloved Death
i apologize in advance
just in case i have really lost it
and could not fulfill our contract
u may punish me as u deem fit
when i have truly crossover to your domain

6/7/2010 1435h

Where have you been, my love
my Angel, so sweet
Do you not know that i remember you still
Have you not remember that promise we made together
or have you been forced, into becoming a human,
like me
somewhere far beyond my reach

When will we finally meet again
my love, so kind
Do you long for me, just as i have for you

Now that you can be seen & heard by others,
will your love not waver, by the temptations of the world
Will you love me the same, just as always,
knowing that i'm nothing but a plain & ordinary girl
while you, my love, is a charming devil in disguise
Will you still love me the same, my angle
just as you did, till now

i've been sent, to roam,
among the living
drenched in plague
clothed by death

wanting nothing more
than to live in solitary peace
for it is not my will
to bring upon destruction of man

deep in the jungle
among the valley of death
is where i shall reside
a place, almost impossible to set foot in

but my quiet days were not meant to last
for once in awhile, beyond my control
lost travelers will chance upon my domain
soon after, stories will spread like wild fire

HUMANS! Does Your Foolishness Knows No Bound!?

trying so hard to find
things which weren't meant to be known

trying so hard to reach
that which is untouchable

thus, bring upon themselves
a fate, which is inevitable

for i am sent
by Hell itself
to punish those humans
who no longer abide by the rules

i seek not, the destruction of man!
it is not my nature to do so
it's they themselves who seek their own destruction
via their disobedience, and redundant curiosity
they brought upon themselves,
a fate, no one can save them from

26/06/2010 1819h

我がの気持ち

as i took his hand
and place it where my heart is
wondering if he can feel my heartbeat
or even, all those feelings which are being kept there

a love which is hard to contain
a love which is overflowing
as i pray that they'll pass on to him
while his hand feels my steady heartbeat

black is all i known
for that was all that i see
in a world where no light can be found
i grew up, not knowing the colours of joy

yes, that WAS my world
the darkness of the deep abyss
till you came, everything changed
you are the light, which manage to shine
through those walls i've built around me

for the first time in my life
i can see the azure sky
i can see clouds drifting, and flowers blooming
above all, i can see that beautiful rainbow
stretching across the clear blue sky

you Are the colours that i'm seeing
you Are the joy which i'm feeling
you Are all that was unfamiliar to me
most of all ... ...
you are the love i never knew i had in me

24/06/2010

dreams, not meant to be
memories, not as sweet as it seems
tainted by the lust of man
is there any good, left in me?

kindness, not always true
so as love, not always real
when light, isn't all that comforting
and darkness, isn't all that frightening

pitiful souls,
tricked by the vain hypocrisy of the world
refusing their very own hearts
they know nothing, but to run from the truth

what are truth?
when they are something which people refuse to see and believe
what are lies??
when they are something people chose to embrace & worship,and seek comfort in

20/06/2010
0330h